Crybaby

Something inside of me is changing.  It’s an emotional change; in the sense that there is a change occurring in how I react, emotionally, to certain things.  I think I’m becoming a crybaby.

The first time I can remember noticing it was when I married my first wife.  The Justice of the Peace pronounced us joined, and I felt tears in my eyes and a tightness in my throat.  In that particular instance, it was probably a warning from my psyche, but we’re not going there today…

About a year ago, I went thru an experience that created a new perspective in my life, and a new motivation to make changes.  Prior to that experience, I’d had occasional moments of the teary eyes and tightness of the throat I mentioned above, but they were fairly rare.

Since that experience, these incidents have become more frequent.  And it’s not because I’m being exposed any more frequently to some emotional event.  I’m just more likely to be affected by them.

If I see somebody do well on American Idol, I sometimes want to cry.  Talking about what I just watched requires that I first cough, to free up the airways.  If I see a news story about a puppy being rescued from some ugly scenario, I might need to wipe my eyes.

Is this an effect of aging?

Am I turning into a woman?

Whatever the cause, I’m going to end up embarrassing myself some day.